Thursday, September 30, 2010

Direction

I have been thinking about this post for several days now, and I feel that I need to write it before the motivation leaves completely. But I must warn you that it is late and I am tired, so I hope that this makes sense, and my thoughts come across as I want them to.
While I was on my mission I was at lunch with a old hunting buddy, John K., he told me and my companion about a concept that I thought would never apply to me. Well, as you can guess, I am learning and experiencing that concept right now; and I will share it with you.




The above image is of a ball at rest. It has no direction, no power, no motion. This is a difficult position for a person to be in. It takes a lot of effort to remain motionless.

This second image of a ball rolling down the hill, this makes sense, it is a natural and known reaction that we expect. But what keeps the ball rolling? I know that there is a Newton law that would explain it, something like an object in motion will remain in motion until acted upon to stop it, again, something like that. My view, is that the ball continues to "coast" because it is going down hill. It may find some flat spot, and in that case the ball will slow and eventually stop, but as long as the ball in on a declining slope, it will continue to travel on course.

And what happens when a ball is placed on a hill, and expected to go up it? Well, we have learned by experience, and I am sure that Newton is in there somewhere too, that the ball will go up the hill until it has lost all of its momentum, inertia, and power. When that happens, the ball will for a split second stop, and then begin to roll back down to where it came from. Unless the ball is again given additional power, inertia, and momentum, in that case it will continue on its path up the hill.

Now you are asking yourself why would RT be thinking about these simple ideas of physics, and why would a hunting buddy be teaching about them at an all you can eat buffet in St. Louis? Well replace the ball with a person, with yourself. Now, instead of being on a simple hill, imagine that the slope has to do with your personal growth, experience, and direction in relation to the gospel of Jesus Christ.

How often are we in a stationary place? How often do we find ourselves not going any direction, up or down? I would dare say that it happens several times in our lives, I know that it has happened in my life more times than I dare think about. But I am finding that in my life, if I am not moving forward, I am falling back; if I am not going up, I am going down; I am "coasting".

I have been thinking about this topic for several days because I have been noticing that I am not going up. There are several different red flags that have been raised recently that have helped me recognize my direction. But I will admit, that the hardest part about changing my direction is the understanding that I am going to have to put forth the effort to stop, and then to start again going up hill. It is not easy for anyone, especially if one if feeling like they just need to rest from the hard work of going up hill all day every day. But when true reflection is allowed, the number of positive rewards for working daily at going up hill eclipse the tiny reward of going down hill, which is perceived rest.

Now I know that to think that I, or anyone, that must make that transition of down to up and continued up, can and must do it alone, and by one's own power is crazy and a lie. It is impossible. It is hard enough for me to travel forward on a level plane for any significant distance that to imagine that I could go up hill makes me want to not even try, other than for bragging rights (which would be short lived and insignificant). There is a force that continually helps each of us go up hill. A force that is strong enough that no matter how fast we are going down hill, we will be able to stop immediately, and change direction. This force has no limit on its consistent and over whelming power. It has no regard for the persons age, gender, race, political stand point, hair color, how many hairs they have, or if they like vanilla ice cream the most. The only requirement it has is our will, our desire. If we don't want to change direction, it won't force us; if we don't mind and or enjoy going down hill, it can't convince someone that going up is better. We have to want it, even if that is all the power we have is to want it, this force can and will, and does assist us in that very moment.
This power is the atonement of Jesus Christ. There is nothing that compares to, rivals, or even can explain the awesome power, and eternal love of the atonement.
Why have I been thinking about this topic? Because I have experienced it, again, recently.

When I started this post, I was prepared to write only about the illustrations of a ball/person traveling on different planes. But as you have read, more than that came out, and I hope that it made sense, and was well connected.
We all have times that we travel down hill, it is both human, and expected. Also expected is the desire to change direction and head back up hill. It is hard, tiring, painful, and sometimes confusing, but we can continue if we rely on and use the endless loving force of the atonement of Jesus Christ.
I am sorry if this sounds preachy, or warm and fuzzy, but like I said, I needed to write it and see it.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Extra Extra!! Read All about it!

Gabe went poop in the toilet today! Not the potty chair, but the big toilet! He is 2 years, 10 days old! For some that may not be news worthy, but my toddler asked to go poop on the toilet! That is always news worthy!!!


(Images were available but were destroyed en route to the printing press in a fiery car crash, they were the only fatality).



Look forward to a follow-up story from the "Stating the Law Early" story published May 11, 2010.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Good night

Tonight I tucked in my two sons for the first time. It was a different feeling than I had when I was just tucking in Gabe. I felt like a parent. Let me explain:
I have been a father now for two years, Gabe second birthday was just the other day, and I have felt like a father the entire time. But with Gabe, I was hanging out, I was his buddy who told him not to put toys down the air in-take vent. I will still hang out with him, and I will always be his buddy, but with two sons, it feels different. I am going to do the same thing with Isaiah, hang out, play, tell him not to follow his brothers example of throwing his toys when he's tired. I am going to say that now that I have two children; that distinction of two as a whole makes me feel like a parent versus having a child. I have a greater sense of responsibility. Perhaps that is a gift of the Spirit, knowing that I have the stewardship of another of our Father's finest is the weight I feel. Perhaps it is a combination of several different things.
On the same topic, I was talking with my bro-in-law Jay the other day, and I asked him how he handled the transition of one son to two. He said that he was worried that he wouldn't be able to love the second as much as the first. I had similar fears. And like going on a mission, getting married, or eating an amazing steak that is cooked just right, there is no way to really understand the power of having a second son without going through it. When Gabe was born I was happy, I was and still am a proud daddy! But when Isaiah was born and Jennifer said go get Gabe so he can meet his little brother, emotion hit me right in the eyes! I had just watched Isaiah be born, I was closer to him then the midwife who caught him (in physical location). I had an immediate bond and like the Grinch who stole Christmas, my heart grew, my love bank grew! I don't love Gabe any less, I am not having to "share" my love, I have equal parts, whole parts for both of my sons! This is similar to what Jay told me he went through, but until I experienced it, I wasn't prepared for it. I know that my love for Isaiah will grow as we do hang out, and build experiences together, but my foundation of love was a gift, and I thank my Father in Heaven for that.

And lets not forget my beautiful, and inspirational wife! She is amazing! I love her with all my heart! When she asks for a piece, I do all that I can to give her the whole, because I love her, and because I want to show that I love her, and because she deserves it! Jennifer, I know that I tell you all the time that I love you more, but now it is written in stone, and it is open for the world to see! I love you more! I love you more today than I did the day we got married. I love you more today than yesterday! I love you more than I can say. And watching you now with our two sons; you amaze me! My heart grew to love Isaiah, and with that came more love for you! You are an amazing mother! Thank you for saying yes! I would do it again today!

I feel more blessed than I deserve. And the only explanation that I can come up with is that I know that my dad loves me no matter what, and he has sacrificed for me more than I know. But ever greater, my Father in Heaven sacrificed even more, and loves me perfectly! I don't know that I will ever understand God's love, and why He loves me as much as he does, but I will try to love my sons the same, as close to perfect as I can.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Cookie Cutter? Maybe Not, but...



I will give you one guess who is who! I know that I have to put this on here so that I can refer to it in 10 years. Gabe is on the ____ and Isaiah is on the ____. These pictures are of the boys each at less than 3 days old.

Gabe is such a good big brother. Every time that Isaiah starts to cry, Gabe runs across the room to give his little brother a kiss on the head! I am excited to watch these two grow up together! They are going to be more than my two hands can take, but I also know that they are going to be spectacular young men! I am so blessed to have my two sons! What a blessing!

Isaiah was born September 15th, 2010 @ 11:11 AM. at home! Yes, at home and it was on purpose. It was amazing! Jennifer was inspirational, and did an amazing job! He weighed 5lbs. 10 oz. and 19in long. That is small, but still a little bigger than Gabe was. Isaiah is a blessing, and a gift!

(Gabe is on the left, and Isaiah is on the right)

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